Ya know thatâs something Iâve thought a lot about and maybe itâs a side note but Iâm gonna rant on it.
I tend to find a lot of canon fics write Lexa as this standoffish person, not very affectionate or openly giving of acts of touch, but I say look at the facts here.
Lexa was an extremely expressive person in non-verbal ways. She was so very obviously a women of âactions speak louder than words.â And when you take that into consideration, letâs look at how she conducted herself around Clarke.
First of all, the girl was always putting herself in Clarkeâs space. And Iâm not talking general vicinity, Iâm talking
fuckin literally in her space. Like,,, if someone stood that close to me in line Iâd have to drop a âbitch give me two feet. Damn đâ on em. She liked to get close.
Second, where I think sometimes the crossed wires come from with Lexaâs character and how she shows emotion is that theyâre taking how Lexa acts as the commander and applying it to how she is on a personal level. But in my opinion, I think that doesnât do her justice. Because you have to remember, the majority of her time on s2 was spent with her dealing with the fact that Clarke was angry with her. She was trying to be respectful of Clarkeâs wishes for distance, thus bottling up her emotions for Clarkeâs comfort. But even still, even with all that, it still bled through.
God bless her, but the girl
Was not very good
At holding back her desire
And more than that, Lexa very much welcomed Clarkeâs touch
(Nice move for the thigh there wanheda ( ͥ° ÍĘ ÍĄÂ°) )
She never shied away from it or seemed to do anything other than soak it up.
And from the start!
Lexa!
Initiated!
Contact!
She pushed for kisses and she pushed to be closer. She was the one who tipped the tension between them into the romantic arena. She showed physical and emotional intimacy time and again with Clarke, from being willing to take a damn nap with Clarke in her tent to bowing at her feet when the commander bows before no one. She took Clarkeâs hand and held it and accepted that comfort that Clarke offered, freely. She even trusted Clarke with a damn blade pressed to her neck for Godâs sake. She was never ever wary of letting Clarke touch her, even when she herself was working to hold back her desire to touch. And when they finally made love it was Lexa who pulled Clarke to her bed and guided her down into a kiss. Clarke may have initiated the kiss because Lexa wouldnât have over stepped the boundary Clarke laid down, but Iâll be damned if Lexa didnât immediately go for gold after đ¤ˇââď¸
My point through all of this is that yes, I believe without a doubt that if theyâd been allowed to be together longer, they wouldâve been such an intensely affectionate couple in their own ways. With Clarke, who is a demonstrative person at her core and whose love language is visibly touch, and Lexa, who shows her love in small, subtle ways because sheâs so used to having it smacked away or buried under obligation and tradition, youâd have this couple who in the safety of each other would allow themselves a chance to just be soft. To touch and comfort and soothe. To breathe each other in and just be Clarke and Lexa, not Commander snd Wanheda. I think they wouldâve fallen asleep in each otherâs arms and hugged most mornings before going their separate ways. I think it wouldâve been entirely normal for Clarke to hug Lexa from behind as Lexa looked out from her balcony over Polis. And I donât think Lexa wouldâve been shy in her appreciation of Clarkeâs affection, nor in returning her own.
Thereâs a reason why everyone knew of their feelings for each other and why not once did Lexa deny it even when confronted about it. In reality, she doubled down on it by kicking a clan member off the tower and inviting Clarke to stay despite the kill order. Both pretty brazen when you think about it.
If given the chance they both wouldâve been all in and youâll never convince me otherwise.
Indra wouldnât have known a momentâs peace đ